I had my share of lows in my life and I reached rockbottom at 2017. That time, I was in a very unhealthy and toxic relationship. I was unfocused, I stray away from positivity, I binge-eat because that was the only thing that relieves stress at that time, I pushed people away, and I definitely was depressed. Talking to people definitely helps, but since I don’t have that many friends at that time because of my own doing, I got lonely and felt uncomfortable in talking to those who chose to stay by my side because I feel like I was giving unnecessary burden to them. The thought of going to a therapist crossed my mind, but I was too scared at that time because I didn’t have the permission I needed to get help. I knew I needed help, I needed a lot to be honest, but I chose not to. I thought, if I could face hell, then I can face anything.
One day, the demons in my head were just too strong to face by myself. I reached out to some friends, but their responds leaded to the same thing, that I had to get out of the relationship because that was what dragging me down. Of course I didn’t comply. Why? Because I was just too stupid. So, I decided to look for a service where I can talk to someone, hoping that that particular someone can give me a more objective insight on what’s currently happening in me. Funnily, instead of searching for an online therapist, or going to 7 Cups, I typed in “tarot reading Jakarta” on Google’s search engine and found the name Foxglove Tarot on the first option that popped up.
Tarot reading is somewhat mystical to me. In my opinion, the science in tarot reading is nowhere to be found as it reminds me a lot of magicians, and fortune tellers, and madam who-ever-her-name-was that reads people’s path by rubbing on a crystal ball. Subtle robbery, I might say, because I’m paying a nice amount of money for a stranger who is playing God by telling me that I will stumble upon a bunch of cash on the street tomorrow. But, at that time, I didn’t care about any of that stuff. All I care about was for me to talk to someone. So, I went on Foxglove Tarot’s website, searched for what I needed, and I booked a tarot reading. The next thing I know, I was on a video call with Kak Canti, the only tarot reader of Foxglove Tarot at that time.
 |
| This photo was taken from Foxglove Tarot's website itself |
Kak Canti is an intuitive tarot reader. She uses tarot cards as her medium to see people’s current being and life obstacle to guide them to their better future. During the video call, she briefly explained to me about what tarot reading is and, to my surprise, it was not as mystical as I thought it would be - no magic chants, no incense burning, no spreading salts to ward of evil, and definitely no using a book spells like they do in Sabrina the Teenage Witch. There was only me asking her whether or not I’ll be happy in my relationship and her telling me that I would definitely be a caged bird if I keep this whole thing up.
It was the most enjoyable 30 minutes video call that day. Despite the fact that I was opening myself to a stranger, I only felt a wee bit of insecurities in myself. Kak Canti was being very friendly and open-minded about the whole situation that I was having, not to mention very objective, and she did her very best to help sort out my problem by talking to me on how I can improve my well being step-by-step. But, then again, she also gave me the opportunity to decide my future by myself by giving me the choice on whether I want to do it, or not. “I always believe that our free will has the power to change the outcome,” she wrote in the email she sent me. Positive feedback and enlightening encouragement is what I needed, and Kak Canti provided that for me when I needed it most.
 |
| The present and the future |
 |
| I was told that my current animal spirit is a rabbit |
The thing about Kak Canti is that she made me felt like I was talking to a friend, instead of putting a barrier between a client and a server. I wasn’t the least bit scared with the tarot reading, despite it being my first time ever having a tarot reading service. Everything seemed normal, and totally was normal! I came to an understanding that tarot reading is just a way for some people to connect with other people and, perhaps, their whole spiritual being. Even though I’m not familiar with that method, doesn’t mean that I have to be against it. Kak Canti’s tarot reading about my love life were definitely one of the best support that I could get during my dark time and it really helped me compose myself. Although it took me long enough to get out of the relationship, I finally did and I couldn’t be happier.
Two years and another tarot reading later, I finally get to met Kak Canti in person. Just last week, I was invited to her place to chat over endless cups of her homemade Masala Chai, as well as enjoying a quick live tarot reading session about my personal self in general. Her tarot reading service is now expanding as she recruited a partner and provided a wider varieties of services, including a one-on-one live reading in Jakarta and an upcoming Reiki Healing Session. Kak Canti travels a lot, she just got back from her spiritual trip in India, but the good thing is that she’ll be staying in Jakarta for a year now, which makes it easier for me, and a bunch of her other clients, to book a live reading.
 |
| It took us two years to finally meet each other in person! |
For those of you who are curious enough, or maybe currently questioning yourself regarding your love life, or career life, feel free to hit her up on her website. I’m sure she’ll be happy to help you find the root of your problem and sort things out for your better future!
No comments:
Post a Comment